Reach Out For The Hand

Reading time: 1 – 2 minutes

It never fails… I watch this and my skin and spirit soar. What I wouldn’t have done to have had her sing me to sleep when I was a kid. What I wouldn’t do to have her do it even now.

Especially now.

(it will still be a stream, though, when launched)

Pay close attention to her otherworldly means of bringing sound into our world.

“Reach out for the hand” – Cocteau Twins – Carolyn’s Fingers

Breathing Trouble

Reading time: 1 – 2 minutes

Sometimes it gets really heavy in here… in my heart; and I can’t breathe; like tonight.

It’s weird how one day everything seems so alive and so new and then some days seem so consumed by time, loss, resentment, anger, sadness,…

Sometimes I look at POST SECRET (which one should never do when feeling bruised) and think I might send in my very own secrets…

…but I find that others have already sent them in for me.
*(images courtesy of POST SECRET)*

Everyone is Famous

Reading time: 6 – 10 minutes


Sometimes I am so fascinated by and even impressed by the graffiti of New Yorkers. Wander into any public bathroom across the rest of the United States and you will see the invariable puns, raunchy jokes, hate words, or sex ads, and you can find those in New York, too, but more often than not, you will find political expressions, poetry, poignant commentary, and empowering or thought-provoking quotes. Just stop into any Starbuck’s bathroom (some of the most disgusting bathrooms on the planet). It’s really surreal and sometimes I wish I had my camera with me! Lately, I have remembered to bring my camera and captured these!

“How does it feel to never see him again?”

The graffiti above made my heart sink, but I am not in the mood to go into that right now. I just thought when I read it, “wow…”

So my Halloween Weekend was launched by going to PYRAMID CLUB for 1984, this time featuring MADONNA all night long. I was only interested in going because I love my pals, but I had NO IDEA I would end up having such a great time! The entire idea was John’s, so I want to give him credit here. I love that guy so much. I don’t see him enough.

(he is so going to kill me for posting this)

Before I met up with the entirety of the gang, I met up with my homey, Soce, so we could spend some quality time together.


While I had waited for Soce to arrive, I had kept my personal space pretty clear of the advances of some of the fellas, even though they were all perfectly nice guys. I just wanted to be alone, though, and think, feel, ponder… but eventually I was struck by the immediate warmth, kindness, and vibe of one particular guy who approached me a couple of times. Nothing sexual or creepy or invasive, just totally friendly conversation. So we were chattin’ it up and he finally reveals to me that he is BARRY Z of the famous BARRY Z SHOW that is a New York City cornerstone of Public Access TV here! I mean, Barry has interviewed everybody and anybody who has ever passed through the entertainment industry of New York City within the past 13 years or so, especially in the Broadway, Off-Broadway world! So fascinating!

Public Access Television is one of the coolest things EVER in NYC, even though it’s popularity and cool population have moved on to more digital, online mediums in more recent years. Still, it’s place in art and entertainment and porn culture for the New Yorker is permanent, and Barry Z is an icon. It was truly wonderful to spend time with him and hear his stories and see his genuine excitement to hear about the work I do, and even more exciting for him was to find out he could meet the hot SOCE! He’s been trying to score an interview with Soce for a long time, apparently! Anyway, I was really honored to have met him and have plans to hang out again! WOO HOO!

CocteauBoy n Soce n Barry Z


New York Premier Entertainment TV
News Magazine show focusing on celebrity interviews, broadway, off- broadway, film and and music.
CocteauBoy n Soce n Christian

Johnny finally met up with Soce and me, before heading over to Pyramid Club for our night of dancing and lovin’. Christian finally met up with me, too! We’ve been in contact for more than a year ONLINE, but finally met last night! YAY! My gosh, he is so cute and nice and we had a really good time! We definitely bonded.

I always wait way too long to meet people from online. I get all weird and evasive, but I have a new resolve this year. I’m inviting them all out to meet me and I can’t wait! I don’t meet these guys without a LOT of interaction online first, AND I never meet someone just on a whim. Something has to strike me about that person. Interestingly, I met Soce through Friendster about a year ago, too! I will forever by grateful for that choice. He’s a seriously inspiring, sweet, powerful and smart guy. I love him so much!

I sometimes forget how many amazing people I know because of the wonders of the pixel and light of cyberspace.

So the night was SO fun and I danced and laughed and hugged and smooched and loved and gyrated and boogied and everyone was so happy. And… one of my favorite parts of the night? SEEING MY SWEETHEART, DEANDRA!! YAY!!!

CocteauBoy n Deandra

I almost didn’t go, but I am so glad I did!

Most surprising part of the night? Having some gorgeous girl tap me on the head and ask me if my hat stood for ANIMAL RIGHTS (it reads A/R with “animal rights” in smaller print, so she couldn’t read it). I said, why yes! And she hugged and raved that she was so happy to see someone standing for the animals, even in the midst of fun and dancing. It really makes me happy to know others care.

Who knows what the rest of the holiday weekend will bring.


Reading time: 2 – 4 minutes

ANNE, CocteauBoy, n SYDNEY
My goodness the lovely ladies were out last light! YOWZA!! Hee hee, this is Anne and Sydney of THE HAZZARDS, a local New York City two-girl-ukelele-band-formerly-known-as-The-Ukes-of-Hazzard become-full-band-now-called-The-Hazzards! They were SO FUN!!! I love seeing them perform because they make me so happy. I give a lot of support and love to anyone or anything that makes me laugh and happy. I finally got over to Galapagos Art Space for their “Make Out Party” dragging with me Aileen and Johnny and we had a blast! I had asked THE HAZZARDS to make sure they brought some lovely goods for me to buy the next time they performed, because I never seem to get a damn kick-ass T-shirt of theirs and I wanna wear it proudly! So it happens, they got my message and DID bring some! YAY!!

Except… the style I wanted was only in a SMALL. Sydney insisted it would fit my oh-so-svelt body, but I begged to differ, so she gave me a SECOND Tee shirt just to shut me up, and it was the famous “Shut Up and Make Out” Tee Shirt!!! Woo Hoo! So this morning I decided to try on the supposedly mis-sized first t-shirt, since Sydney had sworn that it would truly fit those of the “husky” pursuasion.

Turns out, I was right.

Oh, how right I was.

Slipping myself into the sexy, yellow THE HAZZARDS t-shirt was like squeezing toothpaste back into a tube. I walked up to my big mirror and I stared in horror at what looked to be a walrus trapped in a yellow rubber band. Needless to say, I will have to stalk the gals for a LARGER t-shirt of that color and style at future show.

Thanks, gals!!

Check them out so that your day can be as bright as mine! YAY!

VIDEO ONE: Gay Boyfriend
VIDEO TWO: Shut Up and Make Out