Failing myself is already an awful feeling, but failing other people on top of that is debilitating to me. Remembering to ask yourself “what is the truth” while in the midst of your Feelings, is vital. And never giving up on yourself… is even more important.

A rather fitting song to accompany this vlog can be found here:

FAILURE – Kings of Convenience

LYRICS
Using The Guardian as a shield, 
to cover my thighs against the rain, 
I do not mind about my hair.

Your jacket may be waterproof, 
but know in the moment you get home,
you’re gonna get your trousers changed.

Failure is always the best way to learn, 
retracing your steps untill you know,
have no fear your wounds will heal.

I wish I could travel overground
to where all you hear is water sounds,
lush as the wind upon a tree.

I wish I could travel overground
to where all you hear is water sounds,
to capture and keep inside of me.

Failure is always the best way to learn, 
retracing your steps untill you know,
have no fear your wounds will heal.

It’s Friday, the 13th! Do you have any superstitions? Wait til you hear my ridiculous ones. Like “Bread & Butter.” Do you know that one?

Also, do you remind anyone of any characters in any television shows? I tend to get compared to SitCom characters. But maybe that’s because I tend to see life as more of a comedy, than a tragedy, despite how dramatic my life can seem to be…

Today I get repairs done to my sporadic Internet services, and an upgrade to 50mbps internet speeds! YAY!
And have you given up TV entirely, or at least, given up Cable TV to rely entirely on Streaming Internet?
Have you experienced the joys of French Press Coffee over a regular Coffee Maker?
And are you sick of the word “Absolutely” being used in every free breath of a talk show interview, and the mispronunciation of “Jewelry?”
Yes, I vent a little about it.

A Big Ol' Vlog about my recent Steroid High, the subsequent Big Crash, my Creative Stupor, Catching Up On Work, The Rug Being Pulled Out From Under Me, and Mother's Day!

I’M BACK!!

It’s been over a year since doing anything creative and expressive, such as writing, blogging, vlogging, and I realize now, it’s nearly killed me…

Hey gang!

This week I worked really hard to rise above my experience of frustration, pain, and sadness involving friends I feel were being… well, less than friends. I got to a point where I almost quit, gave up, and walked away from all of it, but there was a moment when I realized I had a choice. So I experimented… and chose Love over Fear (protection), and I’m happy I did.

I almost forgot to post this to my blog! I will be posting a new one every week! Woo Hoo!

YAY!! I'm Baaaaack!!

I'm Baaackk!!! It's been a long time! So why don't I make vlogs more often? Watch the vlog and see if you feel the same way about your reality...

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, but August should get me back on track! For now, you wanna wake up with me and go for a walk around the ‘hood?

YAY!

This was originally posted to vlogaddicts.net/CocteauBoy (you should join!) in response to the great KAOS (tiny.cc/0K20o) inviting us to vlog from outdoors… So get up with me in the morning in my New York apartment that looks like a Power Puff Girl sanctuary, or PeeWee’s Playhouse, and help me say good morning to the animals, the neighbors, walk my dog, and share some lovely stores around my ‘hood.

I have a foot in two different worlds and I live between those worlds. I have an active, heavily-populated social life (though I’ve been lying low over the past couple of years during my recovery), and I have an active, heavily-populated spiritual, metaphysical world where I work. Both worlds think the other one is a bit strange; my social world thinks my spiritual world is just “out there,” and my spiritual world sometimes can’t make sense of my having such an active, goofy, playful social life. Many people from my social world have asked me to explain what I do for a living, so this is my attempt at that response… and I still sound whacko, lol.